sighs, very frustrated now.

so much mixture of feelings.

First, i really hate it when people TAKE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to reply my sms-es. Sighs, cant blame them also, maybe because im like that in the past when i use to work at night safari. But it makes me feel like i'm not important, and worse is i can't settle things without having the go-ahead from them. Sighs, and another thing i'm really pissed about is having a person question you and de-mean you when you try to organise a party for your good friend.
Ya, maybe i'm sensitive, but seriously she should at least apologise. Question so much, then dont go la! what the fuck.
argh, maybe i'm having PMS!!!

and there's this thing about you. When you are not here, i suddenly feel that part of me is missing. and when you are here, i wished that you were gone, and that you disappear without me telling you to. Sighs, so confusing. this thing.

oh and im addicted to L4D2, it's even better than clubbing. hahahahhahahah.
and quest crew.
and bangkok.

you know. im so disappointed with certain friends of mine recently.

i mean you thought you could count on them being your friends, sacrificing for you and all. but it's different.

and most friends change when some guy enters their life. Sighs, i really dont wanna talk about it, but it's been more than once. Maybe it's because im single etc etc. But i know for sure, i dont think i'll ever neglect them. And i've already proven my point time and again during the birthdays, or even just ordinary days and through our lives.
i dont even know why im behaving this way. I know you would say that if i had a boyfriend, i would act the same way as they do as well. But seriously, i've seen other better friends of mine, giving me the "better" treatment even though they are attached as compared to these "said" friends of mine.

Maybe different people have different way of behaving, and maybe i should just move on.

but to those good friends of mine who you think are as described above. well. just wanna say im utterly disappointed in you.
i dont need to have a lot of friends. i just wanna keep my close friends close. simple enough.
and to those who say they miss me, but cant be bothered to make up time to meet up. Dont even bother saying you miss me. because i realise this two words have been over-used.

dont know why but im having this very very bad feeling.

like i want to retch, yet i want to sleep, and yet i feel like running.
and yet i feel sad. and then i feel comfortable. and i feel like crying.

whats happening.

omg those who do not know who quest crew is.
You guys should go google it.

and find out who victor kim is. and see what's his speciality dance move.
and i swear, he just pushed up the stakes higher.
and now my expectations of men are higher.

HAHAHHA, so i'll only marry anyone who can do what he can do. which is his speciality move!!

OMG. dont know?
watch this.

Please watch: 2.11 and 2.22 onwards. omggggggggggggggggggggg.